Post by BENJAMIN KANST on Jun 30, 2010 1:43:31 GMT -5
BENJAMIN JAMES KANST
[/justify][/blockquote]"The proceedings for this session with one Benjamin James Kanst can now commence after being prolonged since June 24th. Subject is male and to refer back to their date of birth, 07/11/1982, we are able to assume they are twenty-eight without suspicions of falsehood -- as of yet. Individual's preference on the generic scale is heterosexual. The patient has also reassured us that we may call them by the following title(s), Ben, Benji or Benny. But of the questions we asked, we are most disturbed to find they believe quite adamantly that they resemble Ben Kowalewicz; such a claim raises many questions"
PHYSICAL EXAMINATION
"Patient's natural hair coloring is brown. We are able to discern easily however their eye pigment coloring which is grey. The individual's weight and height were recorded at 155 pounds and 5'10". With these recordings we move on to:"
distinguishing features
"Patient has many tattoos but no piercings. He has a colorful sleeve down his right arm that includes an angel holding a knife, falling leaves, three butterflies, a sparrow, an anchor and the phrase 'bless me to and from my destination'. On the back of both arms there is what appears to be an Eskimo holding fish. Down the left arm there are a scattering of tattoos. On the patient's wrist is the word 'pals', on his forearm are two tattoos; one is a heart with a banner that says 'friends family music' and three arrows with the words 'white sparrows' written across. His upper left arm has his last name across it. Along with the tattoos down the patient's arms, he has the phrase 'never give up' printed below his collarbone. Other than the tattoos, patient has two scars in the shape of an x over his heart."
appearance
"With an average height and weight, there isn't much about the patient that makes him remarkable. Other than his tattoos, he seems to blend in quite well with others. At first patient comes off as shy and reserved but after quite a bit of coaxing he became quite verbose. His style seems to suggest simplicity with very dew bright colors. Black seems to be the main color for his t-shirts while he also prefers to wear a pair of faded, dark grey jeans. For safety purposes, the studded belt has been removed from his possession. Patient often seems paranoid as if constantly watching his surroundings and tends to keep himself away from others."[/blockquote][/justify]
PSYCHOLOGICAL HISTORY
"When asked what was their favorite thing in the world, they answered: 'my family'. Taking the same question but applying it to the one thing they despised above all else, they said with what we may hope is the same sincerity as the first: 'the bastard who took them from me'. We continued on with asking them about their likes, dislikes, strengths and weaknesses.
personality
"From what the patient has displayed, it is clear he shows a strong sense of protection for those he loves. He feels inadequate when he is unable to provide for the people he cares about. The patient shows an extreme sense of guilt for previous traumatic experience and the loss of his family. Typical of PTSD patients, Kanst suffers from flashbacks and forces himself to relive his past experiences but other times, he will go through lapses where he doesn't remember the trauma. Often he will go into periods of extreme depression where he will withdraw completely from everyone and everything. Kanst does have good days where he seems to be moving on but these are also marked by days where he becomes severally unstable. The only things he seem to like are his tattoos, music and his family. He doesn't enjoy large crowds and tends to withdraw completely when confronted by people. It is very unlikely that Kanst will approach anyone and strike up a conversation but he will attempt to make small talk with friendly faces. Patient also shows a strong dislike of needles and will go into panic attacks when faced with one."[/blockquote][/justify]
PERSONAL RECORDS
[/size]"As we come one step closer to the end of this session, we reach the basis if not roots of our subject. We began with questions concerning their immediate relatives. The patient's father, David Kanst is alive and the patient's mother, Lilian Kanst is alive. Then we asked about siblings to which they responded 'It's always been just me'. Lastly we inquired about significant others who have held or who hold a role in their lives to which the patient then responded: 'Not anymore.'
background check
"Well, I don't really like talking but you guys are really intent on hearing this. Be glad this is one of my good days. I didn't have much of an eventful childhood. I was born in Canada but I didn't live there for long. My parents decided to move to New York City when I was about five months old. So yeah. If you're looking for something that went wrong in my childhood, you're not going to find it. I never really had any complaints about my parents but then again, we were never close. Must have been something they never told me because I always had the feeling that I was a mistake but hey, they provided so I can't complain. Anyway, my mother was a teacher and my father worked some 9-5 job that I never really understood. The only thing I can thank my parents for is they gave me my first drum set when I was 12. I guess things got a bit hard when I was in high school. So I went through a bit of a rebellious streak in high school and around the same time, my mother started getting these crazy mood swings. Turns out, she was bipolar and with me, partying, doing drugs and drinking, it was getting pretty bad.
My first year in high school, I met these guys and we started a band, I played the drums. That was great and all but surprise, mom left me a little gift in her genetics. I started falling into these deep depressions and I was diagnosed with Cyclothymia, a milder form of bipolar. So yeah, my 'friends' couldn't deal with it so I got kicked out of the band. Anyway, after that, things just didn't matter anymore. My grades were shit, I was suicidal and life just sucked. But junior year, I met these guys that needed a singer for their band. Good guys really, saved me from myself and things were going pretty good. I never would have thought but I was a pretty decent singer, good enough for us to get signed. So I dropped out of high school to tour with the band. The guys in the band were really nice guys and they helped me through quite a bit. Yeah, so things went well and uh, I met her when I was twenty-two It sounds so corny but it really was that whole love at first sight deal. Anyway, long story short, we get married a year later and have a kid. Adorable little guy. My medications were working so I didn't have to worry about the slight bipolar issue. Probably some of the best years of my life.
I hope this helps you because I'm never talking about this again. You know how they say shit happens? Yeah, they weren't kidding. Crazy story. I was happy with where I was in life and then, last year, you remember the serial killer they were trying to find? Turns out, he happened to like New York as his hunting grounds and he liked to kill families. There was some bullshit about how his family was never perfect so he had a thing for finding the 'perfect' families and forcing them to face their problems. Of all the families in New York, he picked mine. Fucking insane, right? We were just at home one night and someone knocks on the door. She answers and the next thing I know, guy bursts through the door, sticks a needle in my neck and I'm unconscious. When I wake up, my son and wife are tied up next to me. And then....I....can't remember much but the pain...he killed them and me. Right after he injected me with potassium chloride, the cops kick down the door. Surprise. They'd been following the guy and they were just waiting for him to strike again. So they caught him. Just fucking great. I woke up in the hospital. Apparently I had died for four minutes before they shocked me back. I should have died though...
Honestly, how much more do you guys want? I convinced them I was all right after that but my only thought was revenge. I was so intent on killing that man, I didn't even notice what I was doing to myself. I became obsessed with the idea of revenge. I wanted him to suffer for everything he did. Finally got my chance at his trial but of course, things never go my way. I tried to shot him as he was being brought into the courthouse. I'm a shitty shot. Killed his lawyer and only managed to put a bullet through his shoulder. So yeah, now they're telling me I'm crazy and I'm here in this place." [/justify][/blockquote]
SESSION CONCLUSION
[/u] A severe anxiety disorder that occurs after exposure to a traumatic event. Ben suffers from flashbacks and constantly relives the experience. He avoids anything that will trigger memories of the attack. After the events, he has withdrawn completely from society and is incredibly shy of people. He has difficulty falling asleep and when he does manage to sleep, it's hard for him to stay asleep. Nightmares plague the few moments that he gets to sleep."With the information obtained in this interview along with files from Dr. Jayden Jonhansen and previous medical history from Dr. Emily Wexler, the patient's has been diagnosed with the following mental disorder(s):"
final diagnosis
Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD):
Cyclothymia:[/u] A milder form of bipolar that may be genetically related. Ben goes through periods of hypomanic and depressive episodes. During these times, he will withdraw completely and refuse to talk to anyone. It will seem like he has gone into a daze and Ben seems out of it like he's not completely there.[/size][/blockquote][/justify]
I'M NOT MAD BATMAN! by a.l.e.x. of caution
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Edited by Jimi.
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Edited by Jimi.
